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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 17:28

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And i lived it daily.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

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She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Was to survive, this bastard.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

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And who doesn’t know suffering?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I could never make a relationship work though!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

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I was scared of men, in general

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

All the time i was locked up.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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She found it foreign!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Atheists, there is a god up there in heaven and he loves you so much that he sent his son to die the worst death imaginable and then to turn into a zombie all to save you from sin. Why do you reject him?

We were not on the streets..

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

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They are buried together, in the same grave..

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I never cut or harmed myself..

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

He resisted the act ,that day.

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She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

This is soul school!.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I have no regrets .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I couldn’t, believe it.

Who then, do I blame.?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Would this be the day?

I write beautiful poetry .

I was seconnd youngest,

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Especially a lifetime of it.

We all went to grammer schools

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Im still living with it.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I don,t even have a pension.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

(And it was in our own minds.)

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I was 9 years of age.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

But, we were locked up after school.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

She loved him until the end.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

One cannot live in the past .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

She wouldn,t have been !

Put me off passion for life!!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I will be 64.

He knew the spot.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My family never makes their pension either.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I was very sick at this time too.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She was in good health!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She married twice! .

It was going to be , some day.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I waited trembling.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

As i do to all so called friends.?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

So whats the point in blame.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

My life is so biszare .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

So, i spoilt her more .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I said to her

But it wasn’t much.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

What did i know ?

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

When she asked me how she looked .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I think the readers, may guess!

Ive learnt so much.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Comes on , in middle age.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.